December 29th 2020
almost an ending…
have been a while since I upload a content here, I had my reasons, of course those reasons involve my laziness and my lack of time. I realized, what I have is what is called time confetties, when I have free time here and there, but not an allocated time long enough for me to breathe properly. God knows we need to keep on breathing.
being home during Christmas holiday gives me the time and energy to focus on me and have a decent me time. I am glad of course, that is also another reason why I am free enough to sit down and write. I do love writing and I do miss it, but making it as a routine can add pressure to things I genuinely enjoy, soo no pressure.
so, updates on my life would involve adding another asset in my life, grounding myself by buying an asset here in Jakarta is definitely a huge step. Despite the lack of financial preparation, I can still managed to pay off some initial payment, but left with very little for savings. I am not worried though, because I stupidly hope some how things will work out.
another update would be a more positive outlook on 2021. people might say it is blind faith, cause 2021 would mean just another day, but then any day would be another day, we can make it special if we want to. This time, I do want to make it special, I am not too worried if my plans turn to shit, I mean, look at 2020, in a way this year taught me to be fearless. to take risks because we’ll never know when will we be here enjoying life and living life to the fullest. I am lucky to realize that I an one of the few people who is content with life. I might not be happy all day everyday, I do complain and whine at times, but I must say that I am content with my life, and I am genuinely happy. Am I fulfilled? well that’s a story for another journal input haha
another thing I realize from 2020 is to keep everyone close to your heart, in the loop, just a simple ‘hey how are things’ never hurt. keep your circle small and keep them updated. relationships are an important thing to maintain, you can see who really matters in your life. with that, comes patience. patience not to the outside world, but to yourself. a lot of people put pressure on themselves to be productive, to have a goal and to reach it no matter what. to a certain extend, I agree. however you also need to give yourself a break, take it easy, take it one day at a time, don’t get too bogged down in reaching the goal, try to enjoy the journey more. be patient to yourself, communicate to yourself and listen to yourself.